the game. has. changed.

Ok, this is really not fair! I was doing just great, just going about my business, finally feeling like I had this whole baby-care thing down pat, and guess what, the rules are changing. And it's not like you wake up to one new set of rules - no - every DAY it's new now.

Let me tell you, it takes time to learn how to take care of a baby. Breastfeeding was HARD to learn - and I mean hard, like painstaking, confidence-questioning, dig-your-nails-into-the-armchair hard. Bathing? Ok, it became easy but at first we feared we'd either drown her, scald her, freeze her, or scare her. Dressing? How do you know - long sleeves, short sleeves, fleece sleeper, cotton sleeper... Sleeping? HA! hahahahah!

Ok so we get all this figured out and BAM! we're back at square one. Now I have to learn to bathe her SITTING UP. How do I keep water out of her eyes? And we've started cereal (and why they call it "solids" I don't know because it's the consistency of milk) so I have to learn to feed her from a spoon. Even more challenging, she has to learn to eat from one. And it's s l o w going. How do I know if she's eating enough? How do I know if it's making her feel icky? Does she like it? Does she hate it? She's also learning new skills - am I fostering her mental development? Are her toys too young or too old? Am I making her dumb or helping her grow? I have trouble referring to myself in the third person like you are "supposed" to ("mamma loves the baby"), so will she ever learn I'm Mamma? I could go on...

Yep, the rules have changed. If there are any experienced moms reading this, I know you are secretly laughing and thinking "If she thinks it's hard now?! You just wait sister!" I know, there is so much to come. But honestly, she is changing SO FAST. I can't even tell you - I am literally waking up to a new baby every morning. AGGGGHHHH!! Serenity Now!!!